Had a bit of a rocky week so far, I've felt a bit weird since Monday morning, I don't want to go into public detail though. Sorry. I don't think it's really anything to worry about I was just caught off guard. Of course, there isn't anyone I feel that I can talk to about it here.But, it's okay now I guess.
I've gotten my assignments to a level of done that I feel happy with, happy enough to want to draw Beee anyway, so I decided I should and split water all over my desk and in the process of cleaning it up I stabbed myself with a pin. So, I think thats a way of saying "No drawing for you, Jenn!"
I stabbed myself witha pin, because I made my first T-Shirt for Dani today. I am pretty pleased with it, though the neck line needs a little more work on it, which I shall do sometime.
I finished my Graham Masterton book, this one was really good. Ritual. If people like a good horror novel then I can't recommend it more. :D Some of the detail that he goes into is just startling, and Ritual is no exception! Another very well written book, which has thankfully restored my faith in his work :)
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Is it because I'm really a freak, or ugly or just not fun to be with anymore that people I know and/or have known don't seem to want to do anything with me anymore? Half the time I feel like such a recluse, an outcast that no one wants to know anymore. I guess I must have done something wrong again, I just wish I knew what? It feels that the more I give people, the nicer I am the more that I feel trodden on, I can't explain it very well. I just don't know whats wrong anymore.
All I ever wanted in life, is someone that I could spend some time with, be friends with and have some sort of a connection with, share interests and have a laugh, but, I don't seem to have that... anywhere.
All I ever wanted in life, is someone that I could spend some time with, be friends with and have some sort of a connection with, share interests and have a laugh, but, I don't seem to have that... anywhere.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Annoyed
I try my best to be organised with my University work, and due to my flat mates taking drugs and keeping me awake until 4:30 in the morning last week I missed a lecture on the Wednesday. I've asked several times of different people what happened in the lecture and the answer I got was "*shrug* Nothing." So hearing today about an assignment and stuff being needed to be handed in, I was a bit annoyed.
I went to the Cinema last night with Clare and Aaron, it was pretty fun, with them I don't feel TOO much like an outcast. We went to see Alien vs Predator 2, mainly because of my absolute love for anything Aliens related. *swoon* Though I was dissapointed that there was no sign on Lance in it! But that would have been strange. The ending was pretty cool as well, with the whole Weyland-Yutani reference thrown in. It's a good film, but I think in a way it suffers from what a lot of modern horror films suffer from. People are dying left, right and center and you just don't seem to care that they do. Also there was a section and/or references in it that just screams out "ALIENS RIP!"
I've been playing WoW a fair bit recently, which is probably a bad thing when trying to do a degree. Ashapola is now lvl 27. Blood Elf Hunter, she's pretty awesome.
I find it rather funny that this banner is used a fair bit on Umbrella myspace profiles. Seeing as it was something that I created a good while ago when I was on the profile of "The Voice of Umbrella."
I am not mad at all, I am just pleased that it's being used after all this time.
I went to the Cinema last night with Clare and Aaron, it was pretty fun, with them I don't feel TOO much like an outcast. We went to see Alien vs Predator 2, mainly because of my absolute love for anything Aliens related. *swoon* Though I was dissapointed that there was no sign on Lance in it! But that would have been strange. The ending was pretty cool as well, with the whole Weyland-Yutani reference thrown in. It's a good film, but I think in a way it suffers from what a lot of modern horror films suffer from. People are dying left, right and center and you just don't seem to care that they do. Also there was a section and/or references in it that just screams out "ALIENS RIP!"
I've been playing WoW a fair bit recently, which is probably a bad thing when trying to do a degree. Ashapola is now lvl 27. Blood Elf Hunter, she's pretty awesome.
I find it rather funny that this banner is used a fair bit on Umbrella myspace profiles. Seeing as it was something that I created a good while ago when I was on the profile of "The Voice of Umbrella."
I am not mad at all, I am just pleased that it's being used after all this time.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
How does it FEEL!?
I had a really nice weekend, as you can probably imagine, as Elliot came to visit me. Which always make me feel special. He's really good to me, and I really don't understand why he could like a wretch like me so much. Still, I am thankful that he does. We went out for a drink on the Friday night he got here, just the two of us. I drank too much and was sick though. And I had only had two glasses of wine. D:
On the Sat we went into town during the day, needed to get a few supplied and things for the flat, like a new shower curtain. Nothing really exciting. In the evening he took me out to dinner, which was lovely. We had Mexican. Was lovely. Later, after getting change, we met up with Beth. I didn't feel like drinking due to feeling a bit crappy still. Was nice to see her having a good time though.
On Sunday we went for a 10km walk, which was great. Just talking crap, and being silly. His brother picked him up from Lincoln as well, so I got to spend extra time with him. <3 And, now I have to survive without him for another 10 days. Booo.
I brought another Graham Masterton book this weekend as well, which is good as I am nearly finished with the one I am reading at the moment. (Black Angel) it's not a bad novel, but not the best that he has written. It's just that bit different I suppose, without being TOO different to the others. It's a good read, and I am enjoying it a lot. The book I brought was Ritual, I've read the first chapter already, just to get a feel for it, and it has a really promising start! Looking forward to reading it. :)
I've been doing some research as well this weekend, which felt productive. I think I am finally getting back into the swing of things after Christmas. I fear that may be blown out of the water somehow when I visit Hull again. The more I see Ell, the harder it gets to leave, or have him leave. Actually the hardest part is waking up in the morning and not having someone there to hug. :(
On the Sat we went into town during the day, needed to get a few supplied and things for the flat, like a new shower curtain. Nothing really exciting. In the evening he took me out to dinner, which was lovely. We had Mexican. Was lovely. Later, after getting change, we met up with Beth. I didn't feel like drinking due to feeling a bit crappy still. Was nice to see her having a good time though.
On Sunday we went for a 10km walk, which was great. Just talking crap, and being silly. His brother picked him up from Lincoln as well, so I got to spend extra time with him. <3 And, now I have to survive without him for another 10 days. Booo.
I brought another Graham Masterton book this weekend as well, which is good as I am nearly finished with the one I am reading at the moment. (Black Angel) it's not a bad novel, but not the best that he has written. It's just that bit different I suppose, without being TOO different to the others. It's a good read, and I am enjoying it a lot. The book I brought was Ritual, I've read the first chapter already, just to get a feel for it, and it has a really promising start! Looking forward to reading it. :)
I've been doing some research as well this weekend, which felt productive. I think I am finally getting back into the swing of things after Christmas. I fear that may be blown out of the water somehow when I visit Hull again. The more I see Ell, the harder it gets to leave, or have him leave. Actually the hardest part is waking up in the morning and not having someone there to hug. :(
Friday, January 18, 2008
Updated my links again, added some friends. Hurrah!!
You know, it really does feel good to be using blogger again. :D
Also added a link to my Rhodes myspace profile, I've been trying to get some RP going with him again, I've been so negligent it unfunny. :( I just hope that some of the old faces are still about. I love me some Rhodes action. <3
I'll have to start drawing him again, and get writting that fanfiction. I just sometimes get the feeling that no one is interested, but then again these things take to too pull poeple in.
I really should use this place to post some of my own art and things, maybe use it for photography as well, seeing as this blog is just everything about me *haha, self centered!*
I am really looking forward to hearing more about the Resident Evil CGI film, I am just hoping that it is better than the abomination that has been the Resident Evil Movie series so far, it was them that stopped my faith in RE in the first place, so to have faith restored by a film would just be... good.
I can't help it, I just love Umbrella and their Zombie creating selves! <3
You know, it really does feel good to be using blogger again. :D
Also added a link to my Rhodes myspace profile, I've been trying to get some RP going with him again, I've been so negligent it unfunny. :( I just hope that some of the old faces are still about. I love me some Rhodes action. <3
I'll have to start drawing him again, and get writting that fanfiction. I just sometimes get the feeling that no one is interested, but then again these things take to too pull poeple in.
I really should use this place to post some of my own art and things, maybe use it for photography as well, seeing as this blog is just everything about me *haha, self centered!*
I am really looking forward to hearing more about the Resident Evil CGI film, I am just hoping that it is better than the abomination that has been the Resident Evil Movie series so far, it was them that stopped my faith in RE in the first place, so to have faith restored by a film would just be... good.
I can't help it, I just love Umbrella and their Zombie creating selves! <3
A good thing
I had this really good dream last night. It was one of those dreams that you just don't want to end. :(
It was about this hunter type guy called Azisis and how he was plagued with visions of an apocalyptic future. It was pretty awesome.
I didn't do all that much yesterday, which made me feel pretty rotten. Also my flat mate had his friends over again, for the third night in a row. I've not gotten THAT much sleep over the past few days, it's really starting to get beyond a joke. I've already been down to the Land Lord who seems to ant to do next to nothing about it, but I might go in there again today and complain again. It's just this is supposed to be my home, where everything is safe, and it really doesn't feel like that at all. :(
On a different note I watched Die Hard 4.0 finally. A little late, but I couldn't resist it any longer. It was actually pretty good as well, if you like films that you can just watch without putting much thought into, the explosions are pretty good and it was, at times, utterly far fetched action. Which is what you should expect from a Die Hard film. I've not enjoyed something that much really since Demolition Man, which is a personal favorite of mine.
I just don't feel that enough gutsy films are made anymore, who is there out there like Arnie making films that have the primary plot line of blowing things up?
On another note, I've wanted to get back into roleplaying on Myspace, so I might throw in a link or two on the side links ---->
If anyone wants to join me, just make a profile and comment me/whoever I RP as! :D
It was about this hunter type guy called Azisis and how he was plagued with visions of an apocalyptic future. It was pretty awesome.
I didn't do all that much yesterday, which made me feel pretty rotten. Also my flat mate had his friends over again, for the third night in a row. I've not gotten THAT much sleep over the past few days, it's really starting to get beyond a joke. I've already been down to the Land Lord who seems to ant to do next to nothing about it, but I might go in there again today and complain again. It's just this is supposed to be my home, where everything is safe, and it really doesn't feel like that at all. :(
On a different note I watched Die Hard 4.0 finally. A little late, but I couldn't resist it any longer. It was actually pretty good as well, if you like films that you can just watch without putting much thought into, the explosions are pretty good and it was, at times, utterly far fetched action. Which is what you should expect from a Die Hard film. I've not enjoyed something that much really since Demolition Man, which is a personal favorite of mine.
I just don't feel that enough gutsy films are made anymore, who is there out there like Arnie making films that have the primary plot line of blowing things up?
On another note, I've wanted to get back into roleplaying on Myspace, so I might throw in a link or two on the side links ---->
If anyone wants to join me, just make a profile and comment me/whoever I RP as! :D
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Taken from Ashlyn - Quiz
1. Do you like bleu cheese?
No.
2. Last kiss and where?
Last night, in my dreams.
3. Do you like anyone?
Whole heartedly.
4. Are you single or taken?
Taken.
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
Depends what I am going for, generally not, but I like to have company in the waiting room anyway.
6. What do you think of hot dogs?
I wouldn't say I think about them a lot, but they taste nice.
7. Favorite TV show?
Heroes, Family Guy.
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Tea, it's all about the tea.
9. Can you do push ups?
I can't do anything fitness related...
10. Have you ever done drugs?
No.
11. Favorite hobby?
Drawing, taking photographs.
12. Secret weapon to get the opposite sex?
I don't have any secrets, what you see is what you get.
13. Do you have A.D.D?
Not that I am aware of.
14. What is the best part about the weekend?
I am getting to see Elliot this weekend, that makes it pretty sepcial.
15. Middle Name?
Louise.
16. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment...
1- I should do some Uni work.
2- I need the toilet. :[
3- I Am only doing this to pass the time it takes for my ebay auction to end. :[
17. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
1- Die Hard DVD's.
2- Foot cream, it smells of coconut! <3.
3- Face wipes.
18. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink
1- Tea.
2- Tea.
3- Tea.
19. Current wonder right now?
I wonder if I am more emo than I like to admit
20. Current hate right now?
Myself (Just kidding, see above answer)
I hate not living with my boyfriend, and I hate the fact that I have to be happy witha 20 minute conversation every day and that I can only see him every other weekend.
21. Favorite place to be?
Cafe, with tea!
22. How did you ring in the New Year?
Crying for a reason that I can't remember. I remember crying, but I don't know why anymore
23.Where would you like to go?
Russia
24. Name three people who will complete this?
Eh, people!
25. Do you own slippers?
I have a pair of normal traditional slippers, and a pair of slipper boots that I wear more often.
26. What shirt are you wearing?
A short sleeved OLD anime T shirt.
28. Can you whistle?
No.
29. Color crayon you would be?
PINK!
30. Would you be a pirate?
If I had a good Captain.
31. What songs do you sing in the shower?
I don't sing.
32. Favorite girl's name?
Sarah.
33. Boy's name?
Nathaniel.
34. Whats in your pocket right now?
My keys, my wallet.
35. Last thing that made you laugh?
Mark my flat mate, he's an idiot.
36. Have you shaved today?
Not yet.
37. Worst injury you've ever had?
I['ve never had anything serious happen to me, so probably grazed my knee.
38. Do you love where you live?
I love the place, I just miss some of the people I used to know/who live elsewhere.
39. How many TVs do you have in your house?
2.
40. Who is your loudest friend?
Mark.
41. How many dogs do you have?
None.
42. Does someone have a crush on you?
I certainly hope so.
43. What is your favorite movie?
At the moment... Dog Soldiers, still.
44. What brand of shoes are you wearing?
I don't know, they have a logo that is an E.
45. Who was the last person to text you?
Beth.
46. What song(s) do you want played at your funeral?
My Way - Frank Sinatra.
47. What were you doing at 12 AM last night?
Watchin Edward Scissorhands.
48. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
I need a wank?. Again, I jest. It was about Tea no doubt.
49. What is your current job?
Student.
50. When is your birthday?
March 15th!
No.
2. Last kiss and where?
Last night, in my dreams.
3. Do you like anyone?
Whole heartedly.
4. Are you single or taken?
Taken.
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
Depends what I am going for, generally not, but I like to have company in the waiting room anyway.
6. What do you think of hot dogs?
I wouldn't say I think about them a lot, but they taste nice.
7. Favorite TV show?
Heroes, Family Guy.
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Tea, it's all about the tea.
9. Can you do push ups?
I can't do anything fitness related...
10. Have you ever done drugs?
No.
11. Favorite hobby?
Drawing, taking photographs.
12. Secret weapon to get the opposite sex?
I don't have any secrets, what you see is what you get.
13. Do you have A.D.D?
Not that I am aware of.
14. What is the best part about the weekend?
I am getting to see Elliot this weekend, that makes it pretty sepcial.
15. Middle Name?
Louise.
16. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment...
1- I should do some Uni work.
2- I need the toilet. :[
3- I Am only doing this to pass the time it takes for my ebay auction to end. :[
17. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
1- Die Hard DVD's.
2- Foot cream, it smells of coconut! <3.
3- Face wipes.
18. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink
1- Tea.
2- Tea.
3- Tea.
19. Current wonder right now?
I wonder if I am more emo than I like to admit
20. Current hate right now?
Myself (Just kidding, see above answer)
I hate not living with my boyfriend, and I hate the fact that I have to be happy witha 20 minute conversation every day and that I can only see him every other weekend.
21. Favorite place to be?
Cafe, with tea!
22. How did you ring in the New Year?
Crying for a reason that I can't remember. I remember crying, but I don't know why anymore
23.Where would you like to go?
Russia
24. Name three people who will complete this?
Eh, people!
25. Do you own slippers?
I have a pair of normal traditional slippers, and a pair of slipper boots that I wear more often.
26. What shirt are you wearing?
A short sleeved OLD anime T shirt.
28. Can you whistle?
No.
29. Color crayon you would be?
PINK!
30. Would you be a pirate?
If I had a good Captain.
31. What songs do you sing in the shower?
I don't sing.
32. Favorite girl's name?
Sarah.
33. Boy's name?
Nathaniel.
34. Whats in your pocket right now?
My keys, my wallet.
35. Last thing that made you laugh?
Mark my flat mate, he's an idiot.
36. Have you shaved today?
Not yet.
37. Worst injury you've ever had?
I['ve never had anything serious happen to me, so probably grazed my knee.
38. Do you love where you live?
I love the place, I just miss some of the people I used to know/who live elsewhere.
39. How many TVs do you have in your house?
2.
40. Who is your loudest friend?
Mark.
41. How many dogs do you have?
None.
42. Does someone have a crush on you?
I certainly hope so.
43. What is your favorite movie?
At the moment... Dog Soldiers, still.
44. What brand of shoes are you wearing?
I don't know, they have a logo that is an E.
45. Who was the last person to text you?
Beth.
46. What song(s) do you want played at your funeral?
My Way - Frank Sinatra.
47. What were you doing at 12 AM last night?
Watchin Edward Scissorhands.
48. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
I need a wank?. Again, I jest. It was about Tea no doubt.
49. What is your current job?
Student.
50. When is your birthday?
March 15th!
Well, seeing as Blogger has come back into trend, then I shall start posting here again.
I find it rather funny, that this is the place that I started out, moved to all these other journal providers, just to have people say that "Blogger is awsum!"
In the University Library at the moment. My internet at home isn't working again, which is just plain annoyance! I've been researching different Doll photographers, but can only come up with one that seems interesting. Hans Bellmer. His work is very inspiring, and very influencial as well (Gits & Silent Hill)
I've been trying to get back into anime as well, now that I have been off the scene for a while I don't know what it what, which helps. I'll think about getting some again when I have a bit more money. I don't really have the right attitude with money,. which is an utter curse! I just don't think that having moneya nd being rich is the most important thing ever, but now that I am living alone I probably should.
I am still drawing a little, but not as much any more. I'll probably be posting some more of my photography from time to time here, when things are working internet wise back at home. Seeing as this pace was probably created to keep track on art and drawing things. Need to update my template as well, which I shall do in a moment or few. :D
I find it rather funny, that this is the place that I started out, moved to all these other journal providers, just to have people say that "Blogger is awsum!"
In the University Library at the moment. My internet at home isn't working again, which is just plain annoyance! I've been researching different Doll photographers, but can only come up with one that seems interesting. Hans Bellmer. His work is very inspiring, and very influencial as well (Gits & Silent Hill)
I've been trying to get back into anime as well, now that I have been off the scene for a while I don't know what it what, which helps. I'll think about getting some again when I have a bit more money. I don't really have the right attitude with money,. which is an utter curse! I just don't think that having moneya nd being rich is the most important thing ever, but now that I am living alone I probably should.
I am still drawing a little, but not as much any more. I'll probably be posting some more of my photography from time to time here, when things are working internet wise back at home. Seeing as this pace was probably created to keep track on art and drawing things. Need to update my template as well, which I shall do in a moment or few. :D
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Wow, what can I say!?
It's been nearly two years since I updated this thing. SOMETHING must have happened in that time?
Well, where can I start.
I left my job at Morrisons to go to work for Multiprint, I left Multiprint and got a job with Royal mail, I am leaving Royal mail to go somewhere and I'll leave that somewhere to go to University hopefully.
At the moment I am drawing Anthro art, but have really cut down on it a lot. No more Sinister, but whoah, upon seeing this that might change for the better.
Looking for a new home on DeviantArt, after returning once again to Kizmit account, which alrthough I like it htere, I just can't seem to settle and expand beyond anthro arts. Whch is really strange. And rather annoying. maybe I should just bite the bullet and accept that others might not like what I will provide in the future!
I have com to accept that I am a bit of a walking cliche as well. I love things that are typically goth! Like, spiders,a nd bats and cobwebs! Anything like that just makes me smile, even though it is kind of teeny-goth. Also been shown the ways of the industrial as well, which is absolutely fantastic!!
Developed a new story/concept/thing recently as well, titled BulletFuck. It's primarily Yaoi, which a friend Darkenlite, got me into. I m eternally greatful, because I really do adore my Wars and Beee <3 I'll update my links soon. And, you'll be able to pay their DA a visit.
Definatly think I should go back to The Sinister Urge, it's just a kick ass name, and I can link it beyond sinister as well D: (Rob/White Zombie) Which is also cliche goth/rock stuff.
Recently got ahold of Guitar Hero, which is great fun.
Still play PSO!
Oh, yes, University! I am hoping to do a BAhons in Photography. Need to get my personal statement done for my UCAS form, and finish my portfolio as well. :D I have 4 pictures to print out during my trip to down later, and I'll need to get some card frames again.
I also have been on holiday to Croatia, with Stu, which was a great place to visit. I highly recommend you pay the place a visit. We stayed near Dubrovnik. And, travelled most places by boat!
My sister moved away to Hull, which happened more recently, it's strange to haveher so far away. But, she seems happy.
It's been nearly two years since I updated this thing. SOMETHING must have happened in that time?
Well, where can I start.
I left my job at Morrisons to go to work for Multiprint, I left Multiprint and got a job with Royal mail, I am leaving Royal mail to go somewhere and I'll leave that somewhere to go to University hopefully.
At the moment I am drawing Anthro art, but have really cut down on it a lot. No more Sinister, but whoah, upon seeing this that might change for the better.
Looking for a new home on DeviantArt, after returning once again to Kizmit account, which alrthough I like it htere, I just can't seem to settle and expand beyond anthro arts. Whch is really strange. And rather annoying. maybe I should just bite the bullet and accept that others might not like what I will provide in the future!
I have com to accept that I am a bit of a walking cliche as well. I love things that are typically goth! Like, spiders,a nd bats and cobwebs! Anything like that just makes me smile, even though it is kind of teeny-goth. Also been shown the ways of the industrial as well, which is absolutely fantastic!!
Developed a new story/concept/thing recently as well, titled BulletFuck. It's primarily Yaoi, which a friend Darkenlite, got me into. I m eternally greatful, because I really do adore my Wars and Beee <3 I'll update my links soon. And, you'll be able to pay their DA a visit.
Definatly think I should go back to The Sinister Urge, it's just a kick ass name, and I can link it beyond sinister as well D: (Rob/White Zombie) Which is also cliche goth/rock stuff.
Recently got ahold of Guitar Hero, which is great fun.
Still play PSO!
Oh, yes, University! I am hoping to do a BAhons in Photography. Need to get my personal statement done for my UCAS form, and finish my portfolio as well. :D I have 4 pictures to print out during my trip to down later, and I'll need to get some card frames again.
I also have been on holiday to Croatia, with Stu, which was a great place to visit. I highly recommend you pay the place a visit. We stayed near Dubrovnik. And, travelled most places by boat!
My sister moved away to Hull, which happened more recently, it's strange to haveher so far away. But, she seems happy.
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