Is it because I'm really a freak, or ugly or just not fun to be with anymore that people I know and/or have known don't seem to want to do anything with me anymore? Half the time I feel like such a recluse, an outcast that no one wants to know anymore. I guess I must have done something wrong again, I just wish I knew what? It feels that the more I give people, the nicer I am the more that I feel trodden on, I can't explain it very well. I just don't know whats wrong anymore.

All I ever wanted in life, is someone that I could spend some time with, be friends with and have some sort of a connection with, share interests and have a laugh, but, I don't seem to have that... anywhere.