I, am really really fed up with people trying and asking me to stop playing as Dragonesti, and go back to another character who I used too RP as when WE RPed, its not going to happen OK! I have stayed up too late too many nights to actually stop RPing as Nesti! I have sacrified too much as well.
So, if your going to ask me, DONT Ok! Cause, the answer will be along the lines of "GET BENT!"
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Friday, July 22, 2005
Eternity Awaits
I, really don't know what to do. I am in real deep finincial shit. Mum, is trying to get out a loan for me, so that can pay off my overdraft. My wages just went into my bank, and the cash machine just ate my card, and all I wanted too do was check my ballence to see how much I had too pay off. I think I need about 500 pounds to be totally clear.
I need to pay off my camera, which is another 1000. But, I have a bit more time for that. My moths rent, which is 130, and my college course as well, 285.
I don't know what to do.
If I thught it would help i'd open myself up for art and photography comissions. But, It wouldn't No one would want anything from me
And, If I thought anyone wold, I'd put up a donate sign for paypal. (kizmit_star@hotmail.com) So, yeah. I am in the shit house when it comes to money.
Work was also rubish today.
I need to pay off my camera, which is another 1000. But, I have a bit more time for that. My moths rent, which is 130, and my college course as well, 285.
I don't know what to do.
If I thught it would help i'd open myself up for art and photography comissions. But, It wouldn't No one would want anything from me
And, If I thought anyone wold, I'd put up a donate sign for paypal. (kizmit_star@hotmail.com) So, yeah. I am in the shit house when it comes to money.
Work was also rubish today.
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Gangsters Paradise
*Yawn* I feel really tired at the moment, and no matter how much I sleep, I can't catch up!
I can't even remember what the hell I signed in to say.
I have a really short shift at work again tonight, and some stuff to draw up, but I have no energy or drive to do it again.
I can't even remember what the hell I signed in to say.
I have a really short shift at work again tonight, and some stuff to draw up, but I have no energy or drive to do it again.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Don't you just want to throw a whole load of HATE at some people sometimes?
I had a really fantastic morning this morning, I went to a dog show. And just like last year at the same time was a Hunting Festival. Although I did a two year course in "Animal College" I am NO WAY against Fox Hunting. I love Beagles, so naturally, I want too see them happy in what they love doing. And, the ones they had at the show were perfectly adorable too!!
I'll see what I have in the form of pictures for a future post here.
So, why you ask? The angsty title if I had such a good day surrounded by the best and most cute thing in the world?
Because I feel ripped off... to put basically, I KNOW that I do not own any copyright to masks, but since I have only roleplayed as Dragonesti, I have noticed a HUGE surge of mask wearking characters on Furcadia. So, yeah, Jenn = annoyed about it! XD
It's just something that paints a big part in my character, and now seeing a lot of other characters with masks on, makes me feel really unoriginal. Even though, I was doing it a long time ago. Ah well, Justice will Prevail! And, when they have tired of their silly creations, I'll remain.
I'll see what I have in the form of pictures for a future post here.
So, why you ask? The angsty title if I had such a good day surrounded by the best and most cute thing in the world?
Because I feel ripped off... to put basically, I KNOW that I do not own any copyright to masks, but since I have only roleplayed as Dragonesti, I have noticed a HUGE surge of mask wearking characters on Furcadia. So, yeah, Jenn = annoyed about it! XD
It's just something that paints a big part in my character, and now seeing a lot of other characters with masks on, makes me feel really unoriginal. Even though, I was doing it a long time ago. Ah well, Justice will Prevail! And, when they have tired of their silly creations, I'll remain.
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Damnation
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's" Divine Comedy Inferno Test
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
| Level | Score |
|---|---|
| Purgatory (Repenting Believers) | Very Low |
| Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) | Very Low |
| Level 2 (Lustful) | Very High |
| Level 3 (Gluttonous) | High |
| Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) | Very High |
| Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) | Extreme |
| Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) | High |
| Level 7 (Violent) | Extreme |
| Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) | Very High |
| Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) | Moderate |
Take the Dante's" Divine Comedy Inferno Test
I'm gonna burn the whole world down!
I have too go to work really soon, for a bit of a crappy evening shift. 5 - 8:30 I really don't like short shifts like that. Cause they really do my head in.
Had a bit of a bad day, had to go into town and sort the bank out. Seeing as my Student Overdraft has expired. I applied for a loan from abbey, but they declined it. Great -.-;; I knew there was a reason I hated the Abbey. I have a meeting with Barcleys next monday, too see if I can transfer my overdraft too them instead. And, pay them off, rather than Abbey.
Erm, went into Burger King for something too eat, but had too take two burgers back as the bread roll they we're was MOULDY!! I can't believe it! I mean, hygiene starndards and crap ike that should prevent having ONE moudly roll, let alone two! And the manager then confessed to having more in the back like it, he threw them away! Thank God! But, Pukesville or what!?
I'll never go in there again!
No second chances from me!!
(The proof - Yes, we took a picture of a mouldy burger!!)
Then, went out for an ice cream, cause I just felt so ill from the mould... mould scares me >.> And, now I have a real bad headache.
I got signed up for my level two course, which commences in September, on the 19th. Can't wait!
Hopefully Tim will be on the course as well. So I'll have someone too talk too!
Had a bit of a bad day, had to go into town and sort the bank out. Seeing as my Student Overdraft has expired. I applied for a loan from abbey, but they declined it. Great -.-;; I knew there was a reason I hated the Abbey. I have a meeting with Barcleys next monday, too see if I can transfer my overdraft too them instead. And, pay them off, rather than Abbey.
Erm, went into Burger King for something too eat, but had too take two burgers back as the bread roll they we're was MOULDY!! I can't believe it! I mean, hygiene starndards and crap ike that should prevent having ONE moudly roll, let alone two! And the manager then confessed to having more in the back like it, he threw them away! Thank God! But, Pukesville or what!?
I'll never go in there again!
No second chances from me!!
(The proof - Yes, we took a picture of a mouldy burger!!)
Then, went out for an ice cream, cause I just felt so ill from the mould... mould scares me >.> And, now I have a real bad headache.
I got signed up for my level two course, which commences in September, on the 19th. Can't wait!
Hopefully Tim will be on the course as well. So I'll have someone too talk too!
Friday, July 15, 2005
One day, I'll be a prince you'll see
I jut had this over whelming urge to watch some of Utena again. I just simply adore Utena herself and her attitude. She is just outstanding. I love her whole demeana. And, one day, I want people too think of me as a prince. Like people do her. I never want too see any of my close friends upset or hurt. I'll protect them, like a prince should a princess!
One day, I'll revolutionise the world! One day, I'll burn it all down! I'll change everything about the world, so that its a better place for everyone. But, that means destroying the one we have now. But, one day, I'll make this world better for the people who have it so bad that they can't eat anymore.
I'm gonna burn this whole world down!
Today, I was so touched and inspired by someone I work with. Clark, you have touched a part of me today, that no one has reached in a long long time. Your music is so admirable, and one day, I can promise you now. You will be a superstar. Your music and lyrics have so much meaning too me it is unbelieveable. When there is no one else in the world, you do have your Mum and Dad, they will always love you no matter what happens with school and other people.
I just HAVE too buy your album dude! And, I sure as shit hope your working tomorrow, cause I wanna listen to your songs again!!
Even better if you have the CD for me >.<
I really was SO SO speachless after listening to those three songs.
Clark Chapman, a name to remember for the future guys and girls. The one of few that make my day at work tolerable!
One day, I'll revolutionise the world! One day, I'll burn it all down! I'll change everything about the world, so that its a better place for everyone. But, that means destroying the one we have now. But, one day, I'll make this world better for the people who have it so bad that they can't eat anymore.
I'm gonna burn this whole world down!
Today, I was so touched and inspired by someone I work with. Clark, you have touched a part of me today, that no one has reached in a long long time. Your music is so admirable, and one day, I can promise you now. You will be a superstar. Your music and lyrics have so much meaning too me it is unbelieveable. When there is no one else in the world, you do have your Mum and Dad, they will always love you no matter what happens with school and other people.
I just HAVE too buy your album dude! And, I sure as shit hope your working tomorrow, cause I wanna listen to your songs again!!
Even better if you have the CD for me >.<
I really was SO SO speachless after listening to those three songs.
Clark Chapman, a name to remember for the future guys and girls. The one of few that make my day at work tolerable!
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Sunday, July 10, 2005
My Way - Frank Sinatra
And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend,
I’ll say it clear,
I’ll state my case,
of which I’m certain.
I’ve lived a life that’s full
.I’ve traveled each and ev’ry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Regrets, I’ve had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.
I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.Y
es, there were times, I’m sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.
I’ve loved, I’ve laughed and cried.
I’ve had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.
To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows
-And did it my way!
No one can know what this song really means too me.
There are two songs that I feel really conect me with my Mum.
My Way, though Mum prefers the Elvis version, we both want "our" versions played at our funerals.
And, Family Portrait, by P!nk, and, thats cause me and Mum went too see P!nk together, and I cried when P!nk sang it infront of us.
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend,
I’ll say it clear,
I’ll state my case,
of which I’m certain.
I’ve lived a life that’s full
.I’ve traveled each and ev’ry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Regrets, I’ve had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.
I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.Y
es, there were times, I’m sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.
I’ve loved, I’ve laughed and cried.
I’ve had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.
To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows
-And did it my way!
No one can know what this song really means too me.
There are two songs that I feel really conect me with my Mum.
My Way, though Mum prefers the Elvis version, we both want "our" versions played at our funerals.
And, Family Portrait, by P!nk, and, thats cause me and Mum went too see P!nk together, and I cried when P!nk sang it infront of us.
My Way - Frank Sinatra
And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend,
I’ll say it clear,
I’ll state my case,
of which I’m certain.
I’ve lived a life that’s full
.I’ve traveled each and ev’ry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Regrets, I’ve had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.
I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.Y
es, there were times, I’m sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.
I’ve loved, I’ve laughed and cried.
I’ve had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.
To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows
-And did it my way!
No one can know what this song really means too me.
There are two songs that I feel really conect me with my Mum.
My Way, though Mum prefers the Elvis version, we both want "our" versions played at our funerals.
And, Family Portrait, by P!nk, and, thats cause me and Mum went too see P!nk together, and I cried when P!nk sang it infront of us.
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend,
I’ll say it clear,
I’ll state my case,
of which I’m certain.
I’ve lived a life that’s full
.I’ve traveled each and ev’ry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Regrets, I’ve had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.
I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.Y
es, there were times, I’m sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.
I’ve loved, I’ve laughed and cried.
I’ve had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.
To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows
-And did it my way!
No one can know what this song really means too me.
There are two songs that I feel really conect me with my Mum.
My Way, though Mum prefers the Elvis version, we both want "our" versions played at our funerals.
And, Family Portrait, by P!nk, and, thats cause me and Mum went too see P!nk together, and I cried when P!nk sang it infront of us.
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Call the ships to port - Covanant
a billion words ago
the sailors disappeared
a story for the children
to rock them back to sleep
a million burning books like torches in our hands
a fabric of ideals
to decorate our homes
a thousand generations the soil on which we walk a mountain of mistakes
for us to climb for pleasure
a hundred clocks are ticking
the line becomes a circle
spin the wheel of fortune
or learn to navigate
2x
a choir full of longing
will call our ships to port
the countless lonely voices
like whispers in the dark
a second of reflection can
take you to the moon
the slightest hesitation can
bring you down in flames
a single spark of passion
can change a man forever
a moment in a lifetime
is all it takes to break him
a fraction of a heartbeat
made us what we are
a brother and a sister
for better or for worse
a billion words ago
they sang a song of leaving
an echo from the chorus
will call them back again
2x
a choir full of longing
will call our ships to port
the countless lonely voices
like whispers in the dark
3x
tonight we light the fires
we call our ships to port
tonight we walk on water and tomorrow we'll be gone
tonight
tonight
the sailors disappeared
a story for the children
to rock them back to sleep
a million burning books like torches in our hands
a fabric of ideals
to decorate our homes
a thousand generations the soil on which we walk a mountain of mistakes
for us to climb for pleasure
a hundred clocks are ticking
the line becomes a circle
spin the wheel of fortune
or learn to navigate
2x
a choir full of longing
will call our ships to port
the countless lonely voices
like whispers in the dark
a second of reflection can
take you to the moon
the slightest hesitation can
bring you down in flames
a single spark of passion
can change a man forever
a moment in a lifetime
is all it takes to break him
a fraction of a heartbeat
made us what we are
a brother and a sister
for better or for worse
a billion words ago
they sang a song of leaving
an echo from the chorus
will call them back again
2x
a choir full of longing
will call our ships to port
the countless lonely voices
like whispers in the dark
3x
tonight we light the fires
we call our ships to port
tonight we walk on water and tomorrow we'll be gone
tonight
tonight
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Nuuuu, the badness
I have had a really bad couple of days roleplaying. I dunno why, but I have just had a few really bad days posting. It feels awful. I just don't feel like I have been performing in RP as well as I should be. And, well, I think I have said before how important my roleplay is too me. (And, my few viewers leave now, cause they think I am lame)
Whooo! Dragonesti and Anika finally tied the knot! I can now have a real reason to be overly possesive over her. IC of course. Maybe... I should stop writting about my IC life on here. I think it might bore some people.
Hmmm, mainly been working this week, not had any time for anything else, what with the RP and the workingness. (DeJaVu) anyone XD
Whooo! Dragonesti and Anika finally tied the knot! I can now have a real reason to be overly possesive over her. IC of course. Maybe... I should stop writting about my IC life on here. I think it might bore some people.
Hmmm, mainly been working this week, not had any time for anything else, what with the RP and the workingness. (DeJaVu) anyone XD
VNV's Dark Angel
In your dream you see me clear
I have no restraint, no fear
Powerless I watched from faces I'd assumed.
My purpose set.
My will defined.
Caress the air.
Embrace the skies.
Escape the sorrow and restraint of mortal cities.
Give me time I will be clear.
Given time you'll understand
What possesses me to right what you have suffered.
I'm in this mood because of scorn.
I'm in a mood for total war.
To the darkened skies once more and ever onward.
So many years I stood among the thoughtsand tears of those I served.
Among my own I was alone through my own doing.
All the years I walked unknownbehind the faces I assumed.
Powerless to clear your mind of what you'd suffered.
They fall again.
They fall again.
Give me time I will be clear.
Given time you'll understandWhat possesses me to right what you have suffered.
I'm in this mood because of scorn.
I'm in a mood for total war.
To the darkened skies once more and ever onward.
There is no faith in which to hide.
Even truth is filled with lies.
Doubting angels fall to walk among the living.
I'm in this mood because of scorn.
I'm in a mood for total war.
To the darkened skies once more and ever onward.
I'd only come here seeking peace.
I'd only come here seeking me.
It seems I came to leave.
I have no restraint, no fear
Powerless I watched from faces I'd assumed.
My purpose set.
My will defined.
Caress the air.
Embrace the skies.
Escape the sorrow and restraint of mortal cities.
Give me time I will be clear.
Given time you'll understand
What possesses me to right what you have suffered.
I'm in this mood because of scorn.
I'm in a mood for total war.
To the darkened skies once more and ever onward.
So many years I stood among the thoughtsand tears of those I served.
Among my own I was alone through my own doing.
All the years I walked unknownbehind the faces I assumed.
Powerless to clear your mind of what you'd suffered.
They fall again.
They fall again.
Give me time I will be clear.
Given time you'll understandWhat possesses me to right what you have suffered.
I'm in this mood because of scorn.
I'm in a mood for total war.
To the darkened skies once more and ever onward.
There is no faith in which to hide.
Even truth is filled with lies.
Doubting angels fall to walk among the living.
I'm in this mood because of scorn.
I'm in a mood for total war.
To the darkened skies once more and ever onward.
I'd only come here seeking peace.
I'd only come here seeking me.
It seems I came to leave.
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
so... tired...
I havn't felt this tired in a long time! I think its due to the extreme late nights (Due to RP) and cause of the overtime I have been doing at work. It's taking a lot out of me at the moment, but the last thing I want is too loose all I have gained in my roleplay. It's really too much to back out of it now. I have cut down on my Second Life though. My roleplay now comes before that and IS my second life now.
Not much else to report. Had a brief meeting with Deb the other day.
Erm, handed a couple of application forms around, and CV to a camera shop in town.
Not much else to report. Had a brief meeting with Deb the other day.
Erm, handed a couple of application forms around, and CV to a camera shop in town.
Saturday, July 02, 2005
Sometimes... people get right on my tits!
Darai plunked himself down. ".. People are so nice, bunneh." was said to a large rabbit plush held in his lap. Head lifted, eyes spotting the blue figure. The evil. ".. Except those that leave YOU for your MOTHER!" Voice rose. Auds pinned back. His 'mother' was a fucking whore. Every single female was a whore. Good for nothing, lieing, cheating. Arms tightened around the doll. ".. And whats worse is a man beleiving a woman who cheated with him on her husband won't do it again just because their together."
Someone roleplat posted that at Dragonesti today. And, before anything goes on. Yes, Dragonesti did leave this character Darai (then called Dereki) For his mother. All through roleplay. But, the player behind Darai really won't leave the whole thing alone. I mean, we have been away from the brat for a long time now. Cause the player hates me for Dragonesti leaving Darai. I can't believe they actually posted this, out in the open cause of a grudge! And, to make things worse, as I was about to reply they just went! How RUDE. I mean, I take my roleplay very seriously now. And, too just up and leave after throwing that at me!! Bastards!!
I forgot what else I was going to write, So, I'll leave it at that...
Someone roleplat posted that at Dragonesti today. And, before anything goes on. Yes, Dragonesti did leave this character Darai (then called Dereki) For his mother. All through roleplay. But, the player behind Darai really won't leave the whole thing alone. I mean, we have been away from the brat for a long time now. Cause the player hates me for Dragonesti leaving Darai. I can't believe they actually posted this, out in the open cause of a grudge! And, to make things worse, as I was about to reply they just went! How RUDE. I mean, I take my roleplay very seriously now. And, too just up and leave after throwing that at me!! Bastards!!
I forgot what else I was going to write, So, I'll leave it at that...
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