"I've only been here for 21 years, but already my life is over."
It's so difficult to find the direction in life that you want to go in. I have been having so much trouble over the past month or so finding my happiness. I mean, I know I had a great time over the past weekend, but behind the front thre always was that inner thought praying on my mind about what I really want in life. I knew that I should have taken my camera to London with my, but had no real desire to. No reason behind it. No real enjoyment either. I don't know how people can actually live with themselves if they fake being unhappy and depressive. Not when there are really people that are sad and not happy with their lives.
Maybe I should go back onto those calms that I was told to about six months ago. Maybe they would help me find my direction again?
Just remember, that you we're not left behind.
I've been working on something while at work, I've called it, "My Psychosis." A further reach into my mind and finding out who I really am underneath it all. How I can finally reach my asspiration of being happy, with everything. My direction, my life and... well... everything.
I am just so glad that it's friday tomorrow. Saturday won't be any state of easy, but, hell. I'll deal.
Just don't know what to do with my fish now.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
I had a really great time this weekend in London.
Went shopping all day on Sunday, brought a bollock load of stuff which I love to pieces!
I brought a Latex underbust corset, which I can't wait to wear out some place nice. from Honour
I brought a pink and black corset from Fairy Goth mother, and round the corner found sch a fnatastic skirt to wear with it, as well as a really sweet little mask!
Also got a new higher pair of boots.
Spent £125 in Cyberdog! Great load of stuff and a FREE beach towl! Woooo! XD
Got a couple of pairs of trousers, one pinka nd balck the other black and white.
Got a few things off the sale rail in Siren Fire.
Brought the whole of Kiddy Grade the anime.
Got the next two books of Errie Queerie as well.
Thats all I can remember off the top of my head.Had a fantastic time with Stef as well, though her other half talks to much and she got a bit shy so we didn't have the chance to talk all that much in the end. Seeing the fireworks over the whole of London from the 5th floor of the hotel was amaazing as well. Priceless
Went shopping all day on Sunday, brought a bollock load of stuff which I love to pieces!
I brought a Latex underbust corset, which I can't wait to wear out some place nice. from Honour
I brought a pink and black corset from Fairy Goth mother, and round the corner found sch a fnatastic skirt to wear with it, as well as a really sweet little mask!
Also got a new higher pair of boots.
Spent £125 in Cyberdog! Great load of stuff and a FREE beach towl! Woooo! XD
Got a couple of pairs of trousers, one pinka nd balck the other black and white.
Got a few things off the sale rail in Siren Fire.
Brought the whole of Kiddy Grade the anime.
Got the next two books of Errie Queerie as well.
Thats all I can remember off the top of my head.Had a fantastic time with Stef as well, though her other half talks to much and she got a bit shy so we didn't have the chance to talk all that much in the end. Seeing the fireworks over the whole of London from the 5th floor of the hotel was amaazing as well. Priceless
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